143lbs

Well, I went on a wild ride there for a bit. I took my son to the movies and pizza. I ate just the cheese off the top and much to my dismay, spent the rest of the movie in the bathroom, PBing. I
told myself, only liquids the next day. Well, since I have no will power, I ate chicken noodle soup and ate some noddles. That started the pain all over and then that night, I ate a couple of bites of roast beef. I spent the rest of that night PBing. So the next day, down to 141lbs I start to get worried, that I'm out of control. I start having thoughts about needing an unfill, going to the local Dr., what a waste my last fill was, on and on... So I spend that day on liquids, latte in the AM, protein drink that afternoon and all night. What a horrible thing those protein drinks are, UGH. The next day, I'm back to eating normal, it's all good. No unfill, no more money spent. In the big picture, I do feel like I'm a little too tight and maybe I should have skipped my last fill, but I just had to get to goal. And I don't feel like I'm too tight to eat, but just that quality of life issue. I shouldn't be this tight for the rest of my life. I plug along though because I know in a few months I will be pregnant and need an unfill of at least some at that point. I will deal with it until then. Oh, and one day after being back on solids, I gained 2lbs back. That is OK, I will happy floating between 148 and 143. I don't want to make myself crazy trying to stay thin, I just don't want to let it get out of control again.

Bye for now.